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How long can I hold on?

Will this darkness ever move on?

Pag-ibig Nga Naman!

"Love is never easy."

Don't you agree?

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Pag-ibig Nga Naman!

Ang mundo ating kinagisnan ay magulong-magulo.

Sa pulitika, sa ating bansa  at maging sa buhay ng tao.

Pero may mas gugulo pa kung tungkol na sa pag-ibig ang itatanong ko?

Sasagutin mo ba ako ng walang pag-aalinlangan at bukal sa iyong sa puso?

Ang pag-ibig nga naman ay sadyang madaya.

Dumadating ng di inaasahan at minsan sa panahong walang-wala ka!

Ang pag-ibig nga naman ay sadyang kay saya,

sapagkat ito nagpapaligaya sa bawat isa.

Ang pag-ibig nga naman ay sadyang napakakulit.

Na kahit may tampo ka sa iyong  iniirog ay walang pakundangan kang kinakalabit.

Pag-ibig dito, pag-ibig doon.

Kahit saan lupalop man ng mundo ay parati itong nakasunod.

At kapag na saktan ka na ay para kang uugo-ugod.

Masakit na parang pasan mo ang mundo kung ito'y ilarawan mo.

Para bang wala ka nang pag-asang mabuhay sa mundong ito.

Hay! pag-ibig nga naman.

Sala sa init, sala sa lamig.

Pero aminin...

Masarap pa rin kapag ika'y umiibig.

Ano Ito?

It has been a long time since I blogged about something. Anything for that matter and its all because of my apparent laziness lately. If it weren't for some ransacking of some old drawings of mine, I surely wouldn't have found this (I happen to encounter a lot of those every time I ransack some of  my things. Did you notice?) 

Anyways, this would be a bit different from all my poems that you have read mainly because it's not written in English (that's why I said a bit different). Even so, I hope you come to like it.

This is dedicated to my classmate way back when I was still a college student Rodelyn Acquilles. (*waves Hi! :D)

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Ano ito?

Sa tuwing ika'y nakikita

Puso ko'y kumakaba.

Mata'y mang isipin 

Sa iyo lagi nakatingin.

Nagpaparamdam kahit pa pano.

Nagkakaganito ng dahil sa'yo.

Isipin lang  kita

Mundo ko ay kumpleto.

Hindi ko pa ito nararanasan

o nabasa man lang.

Sa mga inaasahan kung libro

O sa mga pinagkakatiwalaan kung tao.

Ano nga ba ito?

Pag-ibig na ba ang tawag niyo dito?

Ito ba ang pag-ibig na nagpapasakit sa mga kawawang tao?

Ito ba ang pag-ibig na nagpapasaya sa lahat ng nakakaranas nito?

Mahal na nga ba kita kaya ako nagkakaganito?

Pana'y tulala at nakangiti kahit walang tao?

Nabubuhay sa imahinasyon at simpling ngiti pag tugon mo?

Kung pag-ibig ito,

Ano ang gagawin ko?

Who said?

One rainy day, when I was at a pizza house with my family. I was looking out from the glass window when I noticed a girl standing on the road . She wasn't bothered that she was drenched or that passersby would look her way. She just stood there clutching her bag, head bent down and completely motionless. That got me really curious you know, as to why she was acting that way. What's running on her mind and what she's feeling. I was still making some different scenarios in my head when she suddenly looked in my direction, I didn't know if she saw me or not. I just noticed that whatever she was thinking or have gone through she was able to looked up in the sky and smiled. And for the first time, she moved with confidence and satisfaction in the air. 

That's how this poem was made.I thought things like those only happens in books.Now, I know. And due to my curiosity and inspiration, I got the words right out from my mind and into the back of the receipt. Yes, I usually write random stuff at the back of a piece of paper. Here is how it goes.

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Who said?

Who said anything about the rain so gloomy?

When all it does is to fall so endlessly.

Who said anything about the sky so dark?

When all it does is to stretch far and wide and even bends like an arch.

Who said anything about you hurting me?

When all you did was to love me unconditionally.

Who said anything about me leaving you?

When all I did was to wait for you so patiently.

Who said anything about me crying under the rain?

When all I did was to stand there, feeling everything but not pain.

Who said anything about you looking at an empty sky.

When all you did was to hold me under the glittering night.

Who said about us not having a happy ending?

When all we did was to love each other and starting a new beginning.

Who said?

The Love I Prayed

Due to the poems that I have recently posted a lot of people have been asking me  whether if I'm inspired or in love. My answer to their query is this: O.o is that a big deal? However, my answer was not to their satisfaction because *clears throat according to them, my poems has somewhat have a meaning behind it, which is true, by the way. And for the nth time, my reasons are different from those mushy reasons they come up with. (-_-) Let. It. Go.

(-_-) Nevertheless, to keep your minds straight and sane; here's an answer to some of your questions: some of my poems were dated way way back during my high school days. While others, when I was in my university years. THAT, dear folks is not hard to believe so don't give me that look. Like I've said, these works of mine have been stashed up for a pretty long time and covered in dust!!!  Thus, I said to myself "Wouldn't be a waste to not share it to someone? or some people and be part of it even if it's just a little?" that's when I made a snap decision.

What do you think is the fastest means of communication these days other than the phone? Correct. The internet. So a little post of here and there and Viola! There you have it. YOU read my poems. :P

As to who and what inspires me to write, I guess that would be the people behind it or the weather that affects my mood. Feelings that can't be expressed. Movies, romance novels, songs, cheesy quotes... you name it.

Enough about my rants. Now that you know the reason. I have another poem I'd like to share to you guys. I made this for my college classmate named Marines Lecciones (*waves Hi te! ^O^) I hope you remember when you read this---someday! ^_^

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The Love I Prayed

We were friends 

since we were kids.

The kind of friendship

we don't want to hid.

When I am sad,

you were there to cheer me up.

When I am down,

you were the one who pulled me up.

You bring forth happiness to me

in some ways you'll never see.

You made me feel special,

like no other girl could be.

A dear friend I am to you

but, you're more than a friend to me.

Through the years, these feelings were hidden.

Afraid that it might become a burden.

So long it was kept but 

I never once I wept.

I always enjoyed being with you

For never I time that 

I feel gloom.

Until such time,

I was about to give up.

You suddenly came to me so hurriedly,

hugged me ever so gently

And said to me out of the blue:

"Could you keep me so I won't feel blue?"

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Memories

When one love is lost .

A new one is found.

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Memories

My love for him will soon fade

cause his gone and far away.

I know my love for him will never be the same

even though he can't feel it in any way.

I won't steal back my memories from him

for I know he will feel blue.

I won't look back at the past, no more.

for I will put it behind me once more.

I  face the present and I found you.

You fill up my empty heart what once was blue.

My fears and tears vanished all the way.

for you are here with me to stay.

For some reasons, I'm no longer gloom

and I already feel the love that blooms.

Now, I face all the years with you

showing my love, totally just for you.

I do thank the Lord God

for he gave me a man who would proudly say "I'm yours".

A man who I truly adore.

And a man who will always love me...

Forevermore.

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My Song

When spoken words are hard to utter. Let the words of the heart flow through and feel your heart flutter.

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My Song

All my life I have been wondering 

if you could hear my heart singing.

A song that is actually made for you 

that came from my heart, it's true.

A song that is truly expressed 

within my soul's long existence.

A song that neither I can't hear,

but I felt it so dear.

A song that thought me to accept

every secrets that the world kept.

A song that sometimes makes someone pesky.

Is now a song that touches your heart heavily.

A song that kept on telling me the true meaning of love,

which has been sent to you from above.

A song that tells you how I feel

Cause for once, I, became so real.

So here I am to tell you that this song

is truly meant for you.

A song that came from my heart

saying the words "I do love you".

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Thinking of You

Since I stumble upon my old collection of poems I have decided (without thinking too hard) that I am going to post it in here since I love to express myself by means of a poem. We may not know, what I have just written might actually be a mirror or so, to what you have felt. Albeit my amateur sentence construction is not that good. I still hope you'll find the time to read it. :D

Anywho, that's enough tittle-tattle. You go on reading. As for me, hmmm...maybe, just maybe, I'll start thinking of you. ;D

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Thinking of You

I know I just met you but I can't remember when

with some reasons, my mind tries to find you then. 

And when all my troubles starts to mend

All I can do is to think of you, man!

In this head of mine I keep on reminiscing,

In a part that we are singing.

I always smile when I remember that scene

Maybe it's just the fact,

That I never turn my back where it all begin.

For some reasons, we do not consider each other close.

Yet, we smile and greet each other with a pose.

Funny how it seems like we've never met before

When just a snap!

We texted too long on the cell phone.

How glad am I to meet you!

For in some ways I'm no longer blue.

Because liking you is not that hard to do

Cause all I do is smile and think of you.

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Sad Good-Bye

My poetic side strikes again! And why is it that every time I try to make a poem it always happens in a very gloomy day? Is this some sort of a pattern or something? Like a trigger perhaps? Even so, this is what I do know, I've said it before and I'm going to say it again. When my poetic side comes it is something I cannot, repeat, I CANNOT just ignore. If you please, bear with me (^_^)

Here's a piece that has been stashed up for quiet sometime now. This little piece of mine also happens to reflect about my perspective after rereading one of my favorite books----"A Walk to Remember", which I know you have read or watched. I have blogged about it too. 

And now without further ado, let me take a minute of your time and read "Sad Good- Bye".

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Sad Good-Bye

My love for you will never fade

yet you're led and far away.

My love for you will always be the same

though, you can't feel it in anyway.

I can't take the fact that you are gone.

Leaving me here sad and undone.

But, somethings tell me that I should never regret. 

Instead, I should be thankful that you and I met.

Though this would be the last time that I could see you,

Still my heart beats only for you.

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Just a Girl

Like I've said in my previous blog, I'm feeling way too poetic for my own good and I can't help it. I have no control over it (so not true--contradictory: Alert!) I have succumb to my calling (which is to make poems)  and decided to go with the flow. This new poem of mine was inspired by the pictures that my best friend once took and here it is.Don't judge! after all I'm just a girl you know ;)

Void

I'm feeling poetic right now. Is it because of the dark skies? or is it because of the gloomy atmosphere? Whatever the reason, one thing is positive: I feel poetic and that is something I do not ignore. Why you ask? Me, being poetic is a rare case unless I'm inspired into making one which hardly happens. I want to sum up the feelings that I have right now which is a complete contradictory to what I am actually feeling.

Anyhow, I want to share this piece of mine. You may relate to it or you may not. It all depends in your head and in your heart. So, here's a piece of my heart this is entitled "Void"

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VOID

I often wondered why I feel empty inside.

As I sit here doing nothing but sigh.

My mind goes forth from here and there.

Looking at the four corners of the room with a blank stare.

Outside my window the world looks gray.

And here I am getting sadder everyday.

The skies are dull.

The clouds are never a lull.

As if the sky heard my silent plea.

Rain starts to pour heavily and stopping is no guarantee.

Soon, the crowded streets went empty.

It was as if they were never been there just like an imagery.

I lean on the wall and looked up the ceiling.

In my head lots of questions were spinning.

Like if my existence has a meaning or

Would someone even miss me if I was gone missing.

I continue to look at gray the sky.

In the meantime, my heart continues to crack and cry.

Just like the cold window panel I sat beside.

My mind goes blank ignoring each rules abide.

A small ray of light brings me back to my senses.

As I witness it beyond the horizon's reach.

I ray of hope shines through this glitch.

Letting me know that everything is not going to pitch.

“A silver lining” is what it seems.

I close my eyes and I know that a new chapter finally begins.

With that small light I'm grateful that I can finally see

That not everything in my life is how it seems.

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I Don't Want To Be Alone

I don't want to be Alone

I have wandered in this world like a  lost soul.
Emotions --gone like I never have it all.
My mind wanders here and there, thinking whether if  I was once adored.
Yet, all I can think of is nothingness until my very core.

I looked up and darkness sets in this very sky.
Like sharing my emptiness ,not needing to lie.
In my own shattered world I am confined.
Can't break loose nor I could hide.

I want to run...
I want to cry...
Until--my eyes runs dry.

 I want to shout...
I want to scream...
I want this all to be just a dream.

I want to wake up from this tragedy.
I want my heart not break up  from this sad reality.
I want my mind to freely wander and not grasping for my mentality.

I don't want to be alone...
I don't want the idea that my feelings are not shown.
I don't want my dreams to be twirled.
I don't wan't  hide from the world .

Let me go so I can be.
Let me go so I can see.
Let  me go so I can believe.

I don't want to be alone...

So, let me love you.
So, I can be free.